Fireflies!!

Each day brings about surprises, each day digs up deepest of the memories.

After one long day, I was on the phone talking to a good friend of mine. Was it like 3 days back we exchanged numbers? Each evening's been spent talking to her, playing with her pup, and sharing our thoughts, and our love for horror movies, and music.

Then emerged Owl City, one of our favorite artists. Silhouette always rang my bells, and as we shared our love for him, we stumped across Fireflies, a song that gave us goosebumps, a song that took us to our deepest dreams..

"I like to make my self believe,
   that planet earth turns slowly....
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep,
   cause everything is never as it seems...
 Wen I fall asleep."

It takes me back every time.. I woke up to the jerk of the speed bumps on the road. The bus decided a halt in the middle of the road. Was it 3 in the morning,  I fell asleep to Owl City after one tiring day at this alien city, an alien University which was to be my home for the coming four years.

I was eager to get out of the sh*thole that as called home, and make my start outside the city, a new beginning. I thought my fate was made to be marinated in the college right beside my home, but, providence decided the opposite.

There I was, "too tired to fall asleep", on my way back home to wait for the time when they'd call to attend classes, to make a fresh start for a fu*ked up, broken excuse for a life. I was happy.
And that night, these same words rang in my ears..

"When I fall asleep..."

In the background there rang these words..

"Please take me away from here...."

Yep! I was finally getting out of home. I was happy, I was content.. What I needed was less triggers to stay sane, and I was getting it. I felt novel, I felt good. Those truly were simpler of times. I knew I had to learn a lot, knew I needed to learn to trust to live in this new place.

And now? Years have passed, am in my final year at college.

Fireflies happened when times weren't any close to complex...
 I haven't met PC, or Teju, or Navy, or even my roomie... And here I am... Here I am, balancing out a tone of my friends who have become my new family, chatting them up, living up... happy and content. I don't know what I'd be if I weren't out of that place and met such amazing people as these...

I feel content that these years haven't gone to waste, and whenever I listen to this song, I smile... It changed my life entirely.. And I refuse to sleep to this thought... To be honest, am just too happy to sleep, cause in the morning, routine and monotony starts. I love the artificial high that I'm now on...

"To ten million Fireflies.. I'm weird cause I hate goodbyes..."

Farewell... for now.

Praveen