Musings Of A Disoriented Critter

It never helps The sinking feeling It never ends I trot, I smile The more I die Each breath Painful and crude I live a lie I live a fool I am beyond help I am beyond life I dream.

I dream of the sea Its waves crashing Against the rocks of my heart.. A sweet whisper Long forgotten A call to my heart Drawing me close Woe is me For I am far The song grows loud Yet my heart runs far My strides uncertain My smile so foreign Yet I hold on... The dream sustains I dream of the sea My heart crashing In unison to the tides I would be home I would be safe

I feel a lump in my throat, A familiar sensation As I wallow in my emotions My ears still ringing From the words you uttered... It helped, you said.. You feel better, you say.. You cleaned up, you fixed things.. Yet the lump grew bigger. A feeling of helplessness Wishes I drift deep in slumber, never to see dawn And be lost in memory... Like the sound of waves Crashing against my rocky heart... A memory. I close my eyes, I smile... If only...